Yesterday was Michael Einfeldt’s 20th birthday. And all throughout the day, I felt a lingering sadness for our friend. Because it’s hard, when you think that Michael’s spent his past two birthdays in rehab and away from home. It’s hard to know that Michael’s accident has limited and affected his life in so many ways. It’s hard to know that a year and four months has gone by since that day. And it’s hard to know that Michael and his family are still going through such a difficult and challenging time.
When things are hard, your heart breaks and your flesh may fail. The weight of the grief of a devastating situation can seem such a heavy burden to bear. But friends, while we may fail, God never does. Today I was reminded in Psalm 73:26, that “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” I’ve felt the pain of failure and lately have been carrying the weight of guilt along with it. So this verse, today, was exactly what I needed to hear.
When the hardships of life has taken every last bit of strength away, God is our strength. God works in our hearts and He gives us every single thing that we need to keep carrying on. He is our portion, and really, truly, He is everything that we need.
No matter what you’ll face, this is the truth that you can live. This is the truth that I try to live on a daily basis, sometimes hour by hour and sometimes minute by minute. As much as I want, I cannot change Michael’s situation or circumstances. But I can trust that even in weakness, God is his Strength and his Portion as well.
We will go and visit Michael tomorrow. We will love him and pray with him and keep trusting God with his life. I will continue to look for the good that I’ve seen God weave into every situation, no matter how hard. And I will find strength in the strength that God continues to give, even when I feel my weakest.