After spending the morning working out at the gym with my friend Erika and talking about all of the junky food I was eating these days and how I really needed to do much better, I stopped by Pete’s Bagels on my way home and bought one of their Blueberry Crumb muffins. For the record, I did try to get a Pumpernickel Bagel (probably not much better) but they were all out. And that muffin was just sitting there, begging to be eaten.
When I got home, I poured myself a mug of milk and sat down to enjoy my muffin. Two things. One, I only ate half. Which wouldn’t be too bad, except for the fact that it was the top half, with all of the good stuff. And Two, I kind of felt a little guilty. Because, like many of us, I always make that resolution, to eat healthier, and weigh less. And Blueberry Crumb Muffins don’t quite fit so well into those resolutions.
Thankfully, I didn’t wallow too much in my guilt. Because I happened to listen to a great sermon as all this was going on. And thanks to Andy Stanley and his Re:solution: Something to Show for It sermon (check it out if you get the chance, it’s fantastic), I had the chance to refocus. Being healthy and eating less muffins is always a good thing. But life is so much more than me.
When I die, I don’t want to strive to be remembered as someone who didn’t eat a lot of muffins. I doubt anyone will remember or care that I weighed a certain amount or worked out so many days. No one will care how clean or not clean my house was, or how many loads of laundry I did a week. But as silly as it sounds, these are the things that I carry guilt about at times.
Life is so much more than me. I want to be remembered for the things that I had passions about. For the people that I cared about. For the ways I was able to make a difference. For the ways that I lived love. So, that being said, those are the things that I’m going to occupy my mind with today. Just a few thoughts, post muffin and pre rest of this amazing day.