We had just gotten home from the Library. My knee was hurting (because apparently it wasn’t a huge fan of the 6.02 miles I ran yesterday and has been bothering me all day) and I was ready to get inside and relax a bit. I picked up my stack of books and turned around to see Christian standing there, empty handed. “Wait,” I said, “Where is the bag of books and movies at?”
To which he replied that he didn’t know. To which I lost it.
“What? Where are they? Where did YOU put them? What do you mean you don’t know where the bag is? Great. Now we have to drive ALL the way back to the library. If you lost them, I’m going to have to pay HUNDREDS of dollars to the Library!”
(The last comment came from remembering how we lost a Star Wars DVD and had to pay the library $50 for it. Because of course, it was a Collectors Edition.)
I’m not proud. And it was pretty ugly. And as I drove back, I was just plain angry. Thankfully, right about that time, the song “10,000 Reasons” came on the radio, and the line, “You’re rich in love and you’re slow to anger,” was just what I needed to start to calm down. Through slightly less clenched teeth, I told Christian to run into the library to see if he left the bag there. I explained that I was sorry for overreacting but I was worried that we had lost them and it would be really expensive to have to replace everything (because we took out a lot of DVDs to enjoy over Thanksgiving break).
A minute after I dropped him off, he ran out of the Library with our green book bag in hand. And I sighed. And then I apologized to our son, and asked for forgiveness for the way that I acted. Because a wise friend once told me that there is power in parents being willing to admit when they were wrong. And she was right.
Our son forgave me. And the night was able to be redeemed. And I’m so thankful. For forgiveness and lessons learned.
Also, I thought I’d share about something fun that Ellee found tonight. It’s called a bookpack, and comes with an audio player and books so that she can listen to the story and follow along in the book. It’s a fancier version of the cassette tapes and books that I had growing up. The ones where the “chime” would tell you when to turn the page. I loved those books and tapes and was excited to see her love hers as well.
She picked Curious George.
And was excited to read through her new book. Which made me excited. Because reading has been a little more challenging for Ellee and so I’m a huge fan of anything reading related that is fun too.
Library tales. One bad and one good. Because that’s about how life goes. You take the bad stories with the good ones and are always able to learn from and be thankful for both.